The Bucket List

Just done watching the movie “The Bucket List”. Maybe I take movies too seriously. Or maybe it’s just their theme. But this movie has deeply moved me. I couldn’t help but pen down my feelings in here. For those who haven’t watched the movie, I’d suggest GO AND DO IT NOW!

Here’s a brief synopsis: this is the story of two dying men – a multibillionaire, and a mechanic who coincidentally happen to be admitted into the same room in the hospital. They slowly get to know each other, and prepare their own Bucket List-list of things they wanna do, before they kick the bucket. And at their 60’s, they are actually out to do it – Travel around the world, drive sports cars, go skydiving, get tattoos, get laid (with some medicinal help).

It puts forth the question – how do you want to live the life? Worrying about the unpleasant fact that you’d die one day, any moment, even now; or, live the time that’s left with us to the maximum; Do what we want to do, get what we always wanted – find the most joyous thing in our life, so that while we take our last breath, we don’t regret that we have wasted a lot of precious time in our life?

I believe that death isn’t the end, but just a final test to the body and final meeting between the body and the soul. Before this test, we get a few milliseconds of time to revise our entire life in brief, and judge ourselves, and how we spent it. It is at these final moments, we rate our lives and decide where we should end up – heaven or hell; that’s right! You live your life happily and usefully and you’ll definitely end up in heaven-a state of bliss; satisfaction that one life wasn’t wasted out. That’s when our soul gets ready for another better life. Or rather we can choose to worry over our death all our life and end it regretting that you have just wasted one full life-time.

Most of the times, we use our mind to do the thinking for us; human mind that’s so fragile, easily altered, uses logic and reasoning to arrive at conclusions. Logic, that is biased, and blinds us from the acceptance of the facts as they are.

This leads us to the doubts; doubts within as well as over the society. And doubts give rise to mistrust and hence to hatred. We live every moment of our life through these phases. All we end up with is hatred, which of course is mostly found today. We strive to get what benefits us, rather than what brings us joy, the ultimate pleasure; the ultimate satisfaction that this life is not being wasted.

Let’s work on our own bucket list. Let’s think over what are the top 10 things we really wanna do before we end this journey and take up a new one. Let’s decide whether we are going to spend this whole life thinking that we may die at any moment and keep fearing it and try to hide from it; or just go out there and get the joy we deserve because we are going to die at any moment anyway.

Am not able to put a proper end to this post, since this topic is neverending, and I don’t wanna be spending my time here just preaching, when I can’t put it to practise myself ;)

The Hard Way

It's actually the name of a novel i read..lol

But its a fact

Humans usually learn lessons of their life in the hard way.

I have learnt to take responsibilities when i came across an incident. And ofcourse it was...The Hard Way.lol

It was during my 3rd year engineering.

The tensions in our class were at peak level.

Group wars were on.
Ironically I was representing the Good guy gang.lol

I was also havin some issues wid a friend.

Then all of a sudden, on an evening, I get a news dat dad fainted in one of his friends' shop.

I rushed to the hospital. Not much info from doctors.
He bit his tongue when he fell down and blood was all over his shirt.

The next morning we took dad to Hyderabad for further checkup.

The same day one of my cousins was gettin married. I insisted on stayin back wid dad. Dad refused n askd me to attend marriage alongwid mom.

So we did. But we were totally absent, for dad had never been hospitalised before.

After 2 days, I had to rush back to home as I had my lab exams.

Mom said she's gonna take care of dad n asked me not to worry.

Now before this all started, we were changing the flooring of our house from normal floor to marble. So we had the stuff from the entire house fit into one room.

Luckily I knew how to cook rice and tomato curry. Those are the only items I ever learnt to cook.lol

So I used to cook in the not-so-clean kitchen, take food to the room wid all the stuff and ofcourse a TV [ ;)]

So I used to sit there, watch tv and eat and sleep within the 4ft space left on the floor.lol.

Oh .. btw... I was 6'3" even then. lol

I still dnt understand how I fit into that place. hahaha

Day time was very tough as the polishing machine used to make a loud and irritating noise.

I prayed to god that everything comes back to normal soon.

The next day I had 1st lab exam and I had to get my lab record book signed by one of my professors.

I should have done it before. So he was furious at me and asked where I was.

I was almost crying then. Told him that I had to urgently go to Hyderabad to admit my father in hospital. He then felt sorry for me.

I somehow managed to do well in the exams.

The food menu and my schedule remained the same for the next 2-3 days.
- Cookin the same food
- Eatin the same pickle
- Sleepin within a 4ft space on floor
- Bearin the irritatin noise of machines

Then I went back to Hyderabad to get dad discharged cuz he was fine then.
Later we had him shown to other doctor and the conclusion was clotting of blood in one of the nerve.

Thanks to the heavens...he slowly recovered.

But now everytime I look back at the mental dilemma i was in, during that period, makes me wonder how did I get out of it widout losin myself.

Phew !!!

Will power sounds louder than a Thunder

The elders are right when they say that too much of laughing for no reason, usually ends up with a terrible hit.
I still wonder why I couldn't join mom and dad on their trip to a temple.
Maybe 'cause I was supposed to face much terrible things later that day.
Dad's assistant was supposed to turn up early that morning. But he didn't wake up early. So I had to stay back at home.
I kept watchin comedy movies all day long and laughed uncontrollably. God knows what made me laugh so much that day.
Later dad's assistant apologised and I asked him to take day off n go home as I needed to be alone to laugh more and more. lol
In the evening, weather became TOO pleasant. Sky was full of clouds. It seemed like a storm was coming.
Then suddenly a thunder hit somewhere pretty near. I could feel that it has hit somewhere in the middle of the city.
Suddenly I got the news that the thunder has struck a gals hostel. My legs started trembling. 'cause that's where my classmates used to stay as well.
But I least expected the next news.
I thought it didn't hit any human being.
But I was wrong.
And the worst part was IT HAS HIT TWO OF MY FRIENDS.
I immediately called up assistant to come home as soon as possible.
And I rushed to the hospital though it was heavily raining.
I was totally shaking 'cause I couldn't take the news.
I was told they were being taken to Hyderabad for further treatment.

I came back disheartened.
I was totally outta my senses with the tension in my mind about the condition of my friends.
I switched on TV to see if something was in the news.
But the video of my friends being taken to hospital totally shook me.
There I was watchn my friends on the news...totally hurt n fytin death. I cried a lot that night. couldn't reach any of my friends. even dad's cell was out of coverage.

The next morning the newspaper talked bout this event. Doctors said its very difficult for 1 of them to make it. Her body was totally burnt. The lightning had struck almost 1-2inches frm where she was standing.
A part of the roof was cut n hit her foot.
Doctors had to remove it.

Another gal was safe, though she lost her ability to hear.

God is great indeed though. Or is it her willpower?

Or is it a combo of the both?

Whatever it is... the gal did it.

She lukd the death in the face, spit on it n came back.

She had to get artificial leg though.

But she came back to normal neverthless n better than ever.

After engineering she joined the same college as a lecturer.

Now she's in a gud position as far as her job is concerned.

A Human being's willpower is lot bigger than millions of volts of a thunder... :)

This is 4 u my sweet sis :)

Bitter Experiences

Sometimes when I sit alone and look back at my life, I realise that what elders say about the balance of good/bad, joy/sorrow, etc is truly inevitable.
There are really a countless no. of joyful moments in my life, thanks to the people around me, and especially my parents who never let the Typical Middle Class lifestyle shadow my limitless joys.
I also had an equal share of some moments that had really me hit hard and stay with me forever, because they keep reminding me of this ironic act of the Supreme Power to balance our lives.

I'd like to share some of those bitter experiences, real eye-openers neverthless. They helped me strengthen myself and get ready to face the facts of life.

My choice of dark poetry

Hey guys,
As I've already mentioned previously, I am very much fascinated by the dark stories and dark poetry. Got to be the Frank Miller effect.
They really inspired me to write poems wid a dark backdrop.
The reason for being inspired by this stuff is I find it more comfortable yet challenging to describe a situation by creating a dark scenery to it.
It's always very easy to describe a pleasant sunrise or a garden full of daffodils or mountains and valleys.
But for a writer, it's really challenging task to create darkness in his/her writing.
Stuff dealing wid nature is very plain and easy to imagine and be a part of it.
Closing your eyes for a single moment and thinkin of a pleasant natural scenery fills you wid total bliss. One can do it anytime.
But darkness is something we all run away from. None of us would ever like to dream about being trapped in a dark room wid no doors or windows. Such dreams just frighten us n wake us frm our sleep.
It's the fear that does it. Many of us fear the darkness.
We feel insecure.
It is this very fear, pain and agony that's truly difficult to describe when you write.
'cuz u hav to involve urself in the situation to giv the reader a true experience.
n it's very painful to do that. lol.
It's in the darkest times that we exhibit our true colors. All our masks are shattered.
We prove what's really important to us in the entire world when we face the challenge of facing darkness.
THAT is the kind of feeling that can truly make the reader totally involve in your writing.
One can't be a true DARK-writer unless one's readers really don't sweat while reading one's writings.
This very challenge inspired me to actually start bein a DARK-writer.
NO...m not an agent of Satan and my lucky no. ain't 666. lol
Facin the darkness bravely will drive away all odr fears from u and also show u the harsh realities of the world we live in and beyond.
So...
I m definitely thinkin of writin some more dark stuff pretty soon..maybe a poem or a story.

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I wish I could

I saw Heroes come n go
When n where they show up, u never know

But then i realise that they had never been on this earth
Superstars have always been just a myth

It was then very late at night
When i was returning after the show of The Dark Knight

Outside the theatre i see
A Little kid who can't even shout out "Help Me !"
Lyin on the road with an empty bottle of milk by his side
Where most of the city was enjoying the late night ride

Then there were a couple of kids asking me for alms
With their pleading eyes while spreadin out their bruised palms

I reach my home with a couple of cans of beer
I got online and spoke to my dear

She didn't stop me but told me to let it out
I finished my drink and I just wanted to shout

Then thinking of the whole thing, I cried a lot that night
I felt like I'm trapped in a dark room though it was actually so bright

I asked myself why so much of suffering in this world
I look up to the heavens, I cry, "Oh my dear Lord !"

"This world indeed needs someone to clean this crap
Someone who never cares how deep is the trap

No matter whether its day or night
All that really matters is to bring in some light

I wish One day I would be upto it and do things the way I should
and then I won't just lie down n tell myself 'I wish I could'"

Nothing can do us apart !!!

He parked the car and then he opened the door
But checked himself one more time in the mirror, before he put his feet on the floor

He was in a hurry, he knew he was late
'Cause she was waitin for him lookin at the gate

He picked up the flowers he bought at the shop round the corner
Their sweet perfume intoxicating even the dead gargoyles

He walked upto her wid a smile, tryin to hide his guilt
But to his wonder, she welcomed him wid a smile

They get close to each other
He touched her lips n she trembled
Tears fell from her eyes 'cause the wait is over
Though its only for sometime they could be together

'cause he had things to do, fight the cause that threw em apart
which he had been tryin to do since two years, with so much of pain in his heart

But its not the time to think about it
that he's with her, after the blows that had his heart hit

He showed her his new suit, bought especially for this occassion
'Bout their li'l gal sally, Who's with her friends on vacation

He showed her the photo of their kid infront of their mansion
which she missed a lot, though she'd never mention

But its gettin late as the dawn was comin and he had to go
She didn't wanna let him, but she couldn't either say No
'cause she knew what people would think of him
they'd either call him a freak or some might pity him

So he stood up and tells "Rest in Peace My Love ! "
Then he walked and took one last look at her soul as white as a dove

Then he told his heart
that's where she still lived,
"Darling, Nothing can ever do us part !"